Another Dream

Ok, I said I would write down everything I could remember, even if it was personal, so I worked up the nerve to write down last night's. I remember we were all at a meeting at work, and the manager J.K. did not have a place to sit at the meeting. I was at the back of the room and I said, sit on my head. He sat on my head for the meeting and once in a while would look down at me through his legs and smile. It was funny. But I thought about not recording it here because it's so bizarre and somewhat personal. But I had said I would, so I am.

The only other part I remember was walking in on the mother from Two and a Half Men, I think her name is Holland Taylor, she was on the bed in her pajamas, not under any covers, had her hand in her pajama bottoms and was obviously masturbating. I was not the only one to walk in on her, there was a group of us.
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October Dream Journal Continued Even Further

10/18/10 - Last night I dreamed about Charlie from Party of Five but in fact I believe he represents Blaine. Charlie and I were not getting along, which mirrors the fact that I was spatting with Blaine most of the day yesterday. Charlie was sitting on some kind of workout bench, which again indicates Blaine who works out three times a week. I asked him for a hug and he indicated that I should lie down on top of him, he was face down on the bench. I said, "No, I want a face-to-face hug, I brushed my teeth and everything!" So he lifted up off the bench far enough for me to squeeze under him, and gave me a big hug. I remember having one hand on his back and the other on his arm, and I gave his bicep a little kiss before I realized it was inappropriate, as we are solely Platonic.

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This one seems pretty self-explanatory. Blaine lives far away, and cannot hug me in real life. The Dream plane is the only place he could give me what I wanted, so he did.
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October Dream Journal Continued Further

Ok so I haven't been having the greatest recall lately for various reasons, but my dream from last night I remembered very clearly when I woke up, and wondered all day whether it would turn out to be true.
First a little background. I started working in a three-month assignment at my company one year ago, October 26th, 2009. They let me go as scheduled on New Year's Eve, just at the three month mark. Then they called me back for a different position the first week in February, 2010, which I started on February 8th. This was again meant to be a three-month assignment, so I should have finished up on or around May 8th. Well, near the end of April (I guess) I was informed that I had at least until the end of May. When the end of May rolled around, I was told I had through July. At the end of July, we decided to just dispense with the termination dates, and just let me know two weeks in advance. And since then it's been that. I would know two weeks in advance. But recently, the date of October 29th was given to me as yet another possible/likely termination date for this three-month assignment. So that is the background for last night's dream.
In my dream, I was riding in the passenger's seat of my boss' car, and she was driving. Knowing full well that today was two weeks before the 29th, and having known all weekend that if she was going to let me go, she really had to say something today, I imagine I went to bed thinking to myself last night, "tomorrow's the day! Tomorrow I find out!" So we're sitting in the car, and in my dream it was today, because I said to her, "today is the day. you know. You have to give me my two weeks notice today" and she looks at me and shakes her head no and goes, "you're not leaving on the 29th".
The whole day pretty much came and went without hardly seeing her, but she swooped into my cube at ten minutes to five and whispered in my ear, "your last day is not October 31st". I am definitely still out of there, she was asked to make a plan to get me out, but it is not going to be in two weeks and my dream turned out to be right.
Now, I've had at least one other dream that I know of, it was a recurring one, that turned out to be prophetic, but this one was different. This one had me waking up going, "so strange! I had a dream that was wrong!" Because in my mind I had convinced myself that this time it was actually true, this time I really was going to be given my two weeks notice. I didn't see my boss all morning and all morning I was thinking to myself, that's so weird! I had a dream that is going to be wrong! I never suspected it was going to be right. I never expected her to say those words to me.
I have a newfound respect for the content of my dreams. I am glad I started making the effort at remembering them. I am glad to have remembered all I did about how you have to let the subconscious mind know it's important to you, know that it matters, and recording them is one way of getting that message across.
So I will pay even more attention and try even harder to remember them, and as boring and time-consuming as it may be, I think I will start recording the little snippets I remember as well, instead of dismissing them as too insignificant or (gasp!) too personal to place here.
There have been one or two that I kept to myself for that reason but even if I change the names or use code, I think I'm going to have to put it here, because I am impressed with this new tool and want to tune it up and see what it can do for me!

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If you're reading this, thanks for reading!

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October Dream Journal Continued

I had another driving dream last night. I dreamed I was on my way to NJ where I thought I might see my friend David (even though he actually lives in Texas). It was 2:17 in the afternoon but for some reason I was seeing the clock in military time, so it was 14:17. I realized I was going to have several hours to kill before meeting up with my friends for the concert I was headed down there for, so I was trying to reach David to see if he wanted to kill some time with me while I was getting ready. But all the different times I tried to call him, I could not get through. Also I had a different number for him, I was trying to reach him at 405-1715 even though this is not his number. As I was driving to NJ at 14:17 and trying to reach him to say I was only about half an hour away, I got on a highway and saw bad traffic and realized maybe I better not say I'd be there in only half an hour, since it was going to depend on the traffic. I almost made one bad move while I was driving, not really paying attention, I almost went to the right which would have taken me off the road and down a steep concrete stairway, but luckily I veered left at the last moment to stay on the road, even though the traffic was bad.
At one point when I was trying to reach him, I was in my sisters' hotel room, still having trouble getting through for whatever reason: either I couldn't remember his number, or I couldn't see what I was doing, or I couldn't figure out how to operate the hotel phone, or whatever. I just couldn't call him.
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Two more dreams

I dreamed about my parents a few nights ago but could remember so little I thought it hardly worth writing it down. But since I am here to record last night's dream I may as well jot down what I can recall. I remember I pulled into the driveway at dusk and knew there should be quite a few people there and was therefore surprised to see no cars in the driveway and the front door open. I went inside to find my mother, did not ask her what she and Dad were doing home and where all the cars were, or if I did ask her I forget what she said, but when I asked her where Dad was, she pointed into the bathroom (we were in the hall just outside the bathroom door) and said "He's right there". And there was my Dad, sitting on the toilet, in the same pink towel my brother-in-law was wearing when he came out on the patio last time we were there. That's all I can recall.

Last night's is also extremely spotty, but the part I remember loud and clear was being in a car on a curvy highway, and noticing the traffic ahead of me was all slowing down and stopping, stopping my own car in time and then nervously checking my rear view mirror to make sure all the cars behind us realized we were all stopped. I think there was construction or an accident in the left-hand lane.

I frequently have driving dreams, not sure what that means, I should look it up in the dream book Dianne gave me for my birthday one year.

October Dream Journal

This weekend I dreamed about people from work. Saturday night, (10/2) I dreamed I was naked in bed with and about to start having sex with some Middle Eastern man, I told him to go close the bedroom door and there was Chris N. from work, in a towel (I think he just got out of the shower) reminding us that he was supposed to room with me and asking if it was still ok and basically getting me off the hook from the sex I was about to have, which I don't think I really wanted to have.

Last night (10/3) or should I say this morning, I again dreamed about someone from work. Since my last day is supposed to be the 29th of this month, Mark H. decided to move himself into my cube. He packed up all my stuff, installed some cube mirrors so he could see who was coming up behind him while he worked, and I said to him, you packed up all my stuff? And he said yeah and I said, wow, that was really ballsy of you at which point his boss Joe K. came along and I sort of rolled my eyes at him in disbelief. I couldn't believe he just packed up all my shit! And apparently was expecting me to share my cube with him for my last month, because my chair was still there, side by side with his and touching.

My Favorite Quotes from MBT

Again, I haven't been blogging much lately, still mightily consumed with Tom Campbell's My Big TOE, I finished finding all of the missing hyphens I could locate, and have moved on to building the index for the book.

While I am building the index, I cannot stop myself from pulling out the pearls and nuggets of wisdom that helped make this trilogy one of my all-time favorite books.

I have no right to post these quotes here, and it is most likely a copyright infringement, but in my defense, the vast majority of the My Big TOE trilogy is available for free on google books right here:
http://books.google.co.uk/books?id=6To0902iZeYC&printsec=frontcover&dq=My+Big+TOE#v=onepage&q=&f=false
and so I don't think the author can get too upset with me. At least, I hope he doesn't get upset with me.

So without any further ado, here they are, my all-time favorite quotes written in my all-time favorite book by my all-time favorite author, at least for the time that is being.

“…the distinction between the objective physical outside world and the subjective nonphysical inside world of mind and consciousness is wholly dependent upon, and relative to, the observer.”

“Big Truth, once understood and assimilated, always modifies your intent, and invariably leads to personal change.”

“Once the mental door of indisputable fact is pried open, the light begins to flood through.”

“anyone can learn what I have learned”

“Becoming too enamored of paranormal phenomena can distract you from more important issues and retard or prevent your further development.”

“…the evidence, as well as the key to understanding, lies within your own experience – and nowhere else.”

“We almost always let our egos trick us into believing that we are much less ignorant than we actually are.”

“The quality of your being expresses the correctness of your understanding. Think about that a moment. What does the quality of your being say about the correctness of your understanding?”

“What is deeply ingrained in us is nearly impossible for us to notice – it becomes part of the invisible inner core of our being.”

“Big Truth must be understood deeply to be effectively applied.”

“The truth is not delicate; it will stand up to vigorous testing.”

“Belief is not a shortcut that will actually take you to a significant destination. Believing what others say is a risky business. You must discover truth and knowledge for yourself or it will not be your truth or your knowledge. Your truth and knowledge lives deeply and vibrantly within your being while someone else’s truth and knowledge can penetrate no deeper than your intellect.”

“There is a natural and necessary order to any developmental growth.”

“Good science starts with honesty, and honesty is most easily applied in an ego-free and fear-free environment.”

“To get out of the box, you first must step over its edge – an act too frightening and intimidating for most box dwellers who will always find plenty of good reasons why it is actually better to stay safely in the box.”

– “For every irrational rationalization there exists an equal but opposite irrational rationalization.” [Campbell’s Third Law of No Motion (otherwise known as the law of inaction-reaction)]

“Spiritual growth, personal growth, improving the quality of your consciousness, evolving your being, increasing your capacity to love, and decreasing the entropy of your consciousness are all essentially synonymous and equivalent.”

“We humans are generally as aware of our individuality as we are blind to our conformity – that is our nature.”

“All paths have benefits and challenges.”

“Our ignorance does not impose limits on the larger reality – only upon our understanding of it.”

“It may take an extremely long time (dim awareness can be very slow), but under the steady pressure of a relentless evolution constantly nudging all systems toward greater profitability, progress is eventually made as new possibilities are explored.”

“Pseudo-knowledge is useless except as a pacifier for a needy ego.”

“Appreciating your limitations is the first step toward obtaining wisdom.” “At the same time, creating apparent limitations where none actually exist by getting stuck in belief traps is a great waste of potential.”

“The ability to accurately assess one’s fundamental limitations differentiates the wise from the foolish”

“It is our free will, our self- interaction, and our interaction with others that creates the possibility of learning, which in turn creates our potential for growth.”

“Assuming responsibility for your life is a good place to start anything.”

“These maze rats are not dumb – they are merely confused and blinded by their belief systems. What should you do to help? Love them and let them be – they will eventually figure it out (explaining it to them often ends up confusing them more). Just love them and let them be – and evolve your consciousness to the greatest extent possible. That way, if asked, you can point out unseen opportunities and options from a more balanced and less ego driven perspective, serve as a good example, and provide encouragement through living proof that success is possible. That is about all you can do to help.”

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and in my further defense, I do own this book, I could very well have typed all of this up out of the copy my sisters bought me for my birthday, or one of the two copies I bought for myself.

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